Something to fill the time

I AM: tall, really strange, a bookworm, strawberry blonde, almost graduated with a bachelor degree in finance, in love, very outspoken

I WANT: to be successful in life, never to worry about money again, chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream, another tattoo, to be in shape again

I HAVE: a tattoo on my left shoulder, a huge birthmark on my right thigh the size of a grapefruit, wonderful friends, supportive parents, bad short term memory

I WISH: people weren't rude to me just because I'm a peon, friends wouldn't forget who their friends are, I never had to do the dishes again

I HATE: olives, pretzels, any type of fish product, the sound of chains banging together, backstabbers, liers

I MISS: my best friends from high school (I wish we could all get together for a week, just us, and be crazy), my bedroom, SKIING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FEAR: never making it out of the poverty cycle my family has been cursed with, not making a name and career for MYSELF, spiders crawling on me and biting

I HEAR: the fishtank bubbling, some stupid ass movie, Paul's phone ringing

I SEARCH: myself for what I truly love and want to do with my life

I WONDER: where I'll be in a year or even 5 years, what the people describe their career as when they work at a tampon manufacturer

I REGRET: quitting skiing, not going to school for a Ski Area Management degree, not getting a 2nd job this summer

I LOVE: Frisky, my soft comfy leopard print bed, ice cream, music, skiing, reading and writing, many many people (you know who you are but I'm not going to make a list that will take me all night to write)

I ALWAYS: overreact in stressful situations, think people will backstab me (do we see a recurring thought here?)

I AM NOT: a dumb blonde, poor white trash....though my relatives are moonshiners from Kentucky--OUCH!

I DANCE: like a fool at work to make Phone Voice and D laugh at me, when I'm really toasted and think I look good but I really look like a 5'10 fool

I SING: really horribly in the car to make Dusty wince while we are taking long car rides together

I CRY: if something upsets me enough (which isn't often), usually not in front of anyone who I don't know really really well

I WRITE: all the time...hence the reason for 3 online diaries and numerous paper journals

I WIN: cribbage more than lose, other than that not much because I don't particularily care for games

I LOSE: my keys, while in search for my keys I lose my purse, when I find my keys and purse I lose my phone....my temper at close-minded jerks

I CONFUSE: names of people I don't know well

I NEED: at least one huge bear hug a day, foooooood, Frisky's purring annoying fat self

I SHOULD: stop saying I "should" do this and say I "will" do this

[YES OR NO]You keep a diary: many!
You have a secret journal: yes...I guess it's not so secret anymore
You set your watch a few minutes ahead: yes
You bite your fingernails: no, they would break my teeth
You believe in love: yes

[DO YOU]Take a shower everyday: yes, I could not survive without one
Want to get married: perhaps sometime down the road
Have any tattoos/where?: butterfly on my left shoulder blade
Piercings/where?: ears only
Get motion sickness?: nope
Think you're a health freak: not at ALL
Get along with your parents: very well

[WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK OF?
Mike: Michael Moore--guy I graduated with and was good friends with in high school
Matt: asshole who used to tell me on the schoolbus "Julie is flat as a board, she'll never get nailed" GUESS WHO'S LAUGHING NOW YOU PUNK ASS MONKEY FUCKER!
Drew: I drew a picture of Aquateen Hunger Force
Ashley: Olsen: anorexic twit with cocaine residue permanently attached to her fingernail
Will: I don't ever want to write out a will
Nikki: the drunk girl from Gregapalooza who ran around in her pissed in underwear and tried to fuck like 3 different of my guy friends. Sick yo sick
Paul: my awesome roomie
Eve: the rapper whose boob I saw during a live concert
George: my boss at the courthouse who was really strange
Lauren: clothes I'll never afford to wear
Alex: the name of the kid I used to babysit who is now the best defense lineguy (I don't know football words!) for his high school football team
Tyler: Steven Tyler from Aerosmith

[FAVORITE]NUMBER: my phone number, call it dammit!
COLOR: dark red and hunter green
DAY: when I get paid
MONTH: December
SONG: "Mudshovel" Staind
FOOD: ice cream
SEASON: winter
SPORT: downhill skiing
DRINK: chocolate martini, Blue Moon
VEGGIE: broccoli
FRUIT: all except apricot
FAST FOOD: sub sandwiches

[IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU]
HELPED SOMEONE? yes, all day at work
BOUGHT SOMETHING? yes, Main Street pizza
GOTTEN SICK? yes, I am right now. Too much cheese.
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? Does ordering pizza count?
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? yes
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? no
TALKED TO AN EX? no
MISSED AN EX? no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? yes
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON? yes, he's laying on the couch next to me
MISSED SOMEONE? yes
HUGGED SOMEONE? yes
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? no
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? no